On Being Brave

On Saturday I had my first unaccompanied venture out, Ray dropped me off at Chesham Town Hall on his way out to golf. I had a wander around the Halloween Fayre and then the charity shops. I was very restrained, being limited by how much I can carry meant being thoughtful about my purchases. I was pleased with what I found, smart baggy lightweight trousers, a black lacy bolero and some necklaces to use in craft projects and a replacement butter dish, identical to our one which got broken recently.

I was walking across Sainsburys car park debating if it would be best to get the bus home or go to have a look in the Workaid shop when I heard my name called, it was my neighbour Angie, she kindly offered me a lift home which I gratefully accepted. It was just what I needed, a comfy ride home rather than being thrown about on the bus and also saved me from going in Workaid for which Ray will be very grateful! A locally based charity, WORKAID tackles poverty by providing disadvantaged people with the tools they need to learn a skilled trade and earn a living. Since 1986, they have helped around 100,000 disadvantaged people to break the cycle of poverty and build better lives for themselves and their families in Kenya, Uganda, Tanzania and Zambia.

But the real treasure trove for me is the shop, it stocks all sorts of handicrafts, wools, yarns, fabrics and haberdashery. I can spend hours rooting through all the pretties gathering things to use in my crafting and come home with a bag or two of bits & pieces to add to the ever expanding collection.

Only problem is, I then go on Pinterest looking for inspiration and spend so long looking that I don’t actually start anything! This ‘meme’ says it all with the additional bonus of featuring Sean Bean 🙂

Today Ray & I went to London Colney so I could exchange a bra at M&S, I have not driven yet, and judging by the discomfort I feel just being a passenger, I think it may be a while before travelling is pain free.

Today I contacted Breast Cancer Care, they offer a service to put women in touch with someone who has had a similar experience to talk to and for support, I have been thinking about it for a while and now feel I need to do this.

I have had some lovely complementary feedback to this blog on Facebook, several comments describe me as brave, but I don’t feel brave, I am just getting on with living as best I can and telling it like it is. Since being diagnosed with breast cancer, some days are good, some bad, my approach to life is pragmatic, Ray & I have always dealt with challenges  by giving consideration to our options and making joint decisions. This time there are no options, I had to have surgery, and I will have to have Radiotherapy, so we are taking the advice from the experts and supporting each other the best we can. We have more experience of cancer than we would wish, both my parents and Ray’s mum died from it, but I must keep in mind that my chances are good and that treatments are improving all the time.

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